High anxiety, mild depression, body image issues and high levels of stress with a 9 month old, growing my business on top of general adulting related stress. Its what I would call a dumb idea….someone with body image issues doing a sport that is judged purely on what 5 people think you look like in 10 minutes of time. Standing in pretty much a Brazilian cut bikini in front of a few hundred people being judged on how I look. That alone has my anxiety through the roof, it scares the hell out of me to be honest and that is exactly why I am doing it.
I am the guy who rarely does things that are uncomfortable for me, I am scared to look bad, I am afraid to fail. I am looking at doing this show as an opportunity to grow as a human not just a personal trainer and coach. Will it make me a better coach…probably. Knowing what it feels like to go to the extreme levels of sacrifice is something I can learn from.
Will overcoming obstacles, developing the discipline to not eat a whole pizza when I am exhausted and stress, developing the discipline to not miss a single minute of cardio over the next 25 weeks, leaving it all on the table and giving every once of my effort into something for the first time in my life.
When I come out of this 25 weeks you can bet your ass I will be a better person because of it. I will not be a better person because I will be lean, I will not be a better coach because I have a 6 pack but I will be better because for the first time in as long as I can remember I am not going to slack off so that I have an excuse. I will have developed the discipline to do everything that I have on my agenda moving forward.